stood on the speaker and poured a beer down it while the guitarist
bonged and played at the same time. Then another guy from back
stage came out and stuck a cig in the guitarists mouth and lit it for
him. Haha. Hardcore. Then he turned around and brushed his
shoulder off. Ahh. FUCK YEAH. So then, Atreyu was bout to come
on. I was soo fucking excited. So, then Atreyu came on.
First song = Bleeding Mascara. OMG, Alex looked soo damn
good. OMG. I cant even explain how awesome it was. The
last song = Lipgloss and Black. Amazing. Then after the last song
no one was leaving, and they started this encore thingy. And they
were all telling them to play one more. So Atreyu comes out again
and they play YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME!! OMG, PERFECT. I was
definately tweeking out since that song rocks. Ahh. Good night.
Then i got a Norma Jean shirt, and i got home at 130 in the AM.
<33

Heres a little something i wrote..

* im drowning in my own sympathy.
   negative thots spilling thru my mind.
   there isnt enuff room for any positive.
   spending everyday laying around; wrapped up in a blanket of self pitty.
   more thots evolving.
   i pulls the covers over my face.
   tears dripping down my cheeks,
   wondering to the great thing everyone calls life.
   i drift into a horrible nightmare.
   its comforting tho.
   it lets me know there are worse things in this world.
   after realizing this, i wake up to burning pain of my crying eyes.
   i pull the covers down from over my face and look around.
   the bright sun shines thru the window, and i know that today is finally going to be a good day *
   <33

I LOVE RAQUEL 


<3 chelsea.

the life of beauty, built by mistakes, is my only medication.

she is the beat of my heart.
she is my first and last breath of life; my only survival.
please dont walk away from me. *


written by: me <3

our hearts are empty now and inside of this place
sits a box of things that remind me of you.
and if we had the chance to start again, this is what id do:

id believe you everytime you said you loved me
instead of pushing you away
and thinking that love was above me.
and id try to tell you things that youd have liked to know,
and not leave them there as feelings that i didnt want to show.

id live it like everyday was the last day of my life,
sing it like this one day.
last chance to say goodbye.
and if i could ever say all the things that i so loved about you,
would you stay ?

you were always the obsessive, jealous type.
the one who could never be wrong,
and let me know i wasnt right,
and youd knock me down every single change you could,
i bet ud never thot id leave.
i guess you always thot i would stay with you,
in this game that you played,
with the smile on ur face,
and the mess that you made.
my mask is off, no longer am i in your masquerade.

and ud live it like everyday was the last day of ur life,
sing it like this one day.

ok R e W ii N d -- [last night]
           soo, i was shopping with my mom and my brother [ i got 2 shirts, 2 pairs of shoes, a cute purse, jewelry for my cousins wedding, makeup, etc ] and we were at wal mart in boardman and i was running late becuz i was posed to go to the movies with my crew but i was runnin late, so instead of going home to get ready, i just called ash [who was at the mall with mitch] and she said shed pick me up in 5 in front. and so i waited for her and i went with her and mitch. then me and mitch dropped ash off in her car, and they went to wash them at the car wash. then we met heather and michelle at pizza hot. we got a pizza, ate, and michelle left to go hang out with wil.
           then, me heather and ash went back to austintown and went to my house and washed our hair and got ready and everything and picked up kasie then we met james, george, joe, sara, and kenny at the mall. it was soo packed. it took us 30 mins to find a parking spot. and we were all walkin around and us grrls decided to go thong shopping, hehe. and so we went and looked at thongs for a lonnnng time. and then we went in spencers. and then.. everyone decided they were fucking hungry again. so i went with heather, james, sara, and kenny in the van. and kasie and george went with joe.
           we went to starbucks, and then to dennys to eat. we had to get 2 booths. haha we were so gay. we were spitting water and spitballs at eachother. and etc. i didnt order anything to eat cuz i wasnt hungry and i didnt wanna waste my money so i sat and waited for everyone else to get done. so when we were done sara and kenny left. then me, kasie, george, joe, james and heather had to squeeze in joes car.
           then we went to ZOMBIELAND. we were racing down the road and i was scared shitless. and then joe [ THE DRIVER ] stuck his whole fucking body out the window when we were going like 70 mph. omg. it was soo dark. and this road had so many turns and hills and potholes. and then, theres this drop.. you cant even tell untill you hit it. and we were going 70, and we hit the drop and it was straight down. i was the only one that screamed. and on our way down the drop, the car stalled. then after that the car kept stallin, so joe figured hed go fucking faster. omg.
         then we were chasing this one car, and the car broke down. it was 11 oclock [ my cerfew ] and i was already grounded. i knew it. so like 2 cars stopped to help us get the car workin again. but.. nope. no go. didnt work. and then came 1130. so dead. and we were in the middle of no where by zombie land so james was waiting for something scary to happen. we were broke down infront of this old resteraunt thingy. it was scary. it was closed tho. james figured he wanted to go up there and see if anything scary would happen. and we were bout to walk around back and he goes " did you hear that ?!" and i like FREEZE and he goes "omg i hear footsteps!" and he starts running. so i start screaming and i start running. and he stops and start crackin up lol. and so then we walk back to the car. and joe called his mom to come and see what was wrong.
         they got there, and couldnt fix it so we had to all squeeze in his moms backseat. 6 kids in the back seat = no good. kasie and heather were on top of us, and let me tell you.. i had to pee so bad and kasie was right on my bladeer. not cool. we had to ride from loweville to boardman where we got dropped off at james'. it was 1200 when we got there. we called ash to see if she could come get us. she got there a few mins later then had to go from boardman to austintown. omg i was an hour and 30 mins late. yeah.. im grounded for life lol.


 guess what.. kayla makes my rainbows a little brighter <3 i love her.
k i r a l y x 5: ill be laying in my beddy-by at ngiht and ill be real depressed and all i have to do is think about you and i fall into a dream =)

and i adore missy carson a whole lot <3 muah


<3chelsea

there goes more ugly scars.

Ash has this nice pimped out car. [Honda Civic. Lowered. Body Kit. Etc]. && the dumbass goes over all the speed bumps just to go spin on the merry go round, and her freaking car almost fell apart going over them bumps. Aha, i almost pissed.